searching for that perfect place.

this is supposed to be yesterday's entry.

i don't know how much more of this i can take. my heart breaks everytime. every single time. and everytime i say it's gonna be the last time, the last time i will cry, the last time my already broken heart breaks again, there goes everthing out the window. i start to cry, my heart starts to break, and i wonder if it will ever be whole again. i'm wondering, are you trying to threaten me into submission? i really don't know, and i have no idea whether it's working or not, but whatever it is, i really have no idea how much more of this torture i can take from you. you and your unsensitive remarks and comments, you not caring at all, you just looking at everything on the surface, you and your cold, cold loose hugs, you not loving me, it just breaks my heart every single time you blame me and say those stuff to me, you misjudging me and judging me, even though you have no right to. i really want to patch the pieces of my heart, without it breaking again.

but the thing is, i don't know how.

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anyways, i have to write that letter over the weekend, i really need to patch things up with her, even though i don't need to, but, i guess, it's kinda the right thing to do, even though she doesn't deserve it at all.

see, i'm that nice.

okay, anyways, i had detention today. with miss goh. the evil one. i was almost eaten alive by her i tell you! and, her watch is ten minutes fast! i reached there on time and she said i was late! i was on time damnit. and she said i had four more hours to fill! WHAT?? no way!

then, went to study after biology stars today with caleen. mz and muhd joined us later. and we played this stupid little game of truth ~~or dare.~~ then, we walked home. very interesting conversation, and i have no idea whether i will actually do it, but, maybe i will. but i have no idea. i really don't. haha.

okay, here are some pictures.

during the biology practical yesterday.
monkey business.